My Family and Faith

I have been struggling with eating healthy majorily over the last few weeks. Feeling sorry for myself that it is so hard for me to loose weight. I know wah wah, big baby!! Unfortunately, I periodically slip into these slumps and have a hard time getting out, forgetting how it effects my family. I was looking at my daughter today, she had just put on a pair of jeans that we bought for her just a couple of weeks ago. At that time they fit perfect and were sooooo cute on her!! But today, I noticed that they are now snug, almost too snug, looking too small for her. At that moment I relize that my slips in too poor meville don't just effect me, they are shaping the fate of my children as well. What will they remember when they grow up. A mom who talked about eating right and exercising but every month or so, slipped off the wagon, binging on everything she could get her hands on, too tired and lathargic from over eating and not exercising, to give them the attention they need. This is not the person I want to be. Sometimes I feel like I am on the outside of myself looking in, seeing me be self sabataging and self destructing, and unable to stop it. I know that there is only one power that is going to get me through this struggle, GOD, and I have been hiding from him, thinking I should be able to do this on my own, I do not need anyone or anything to do this, but I am wrong. I need my best friend, I need my Prism group, and mostly I need to drop to my knees and pray to GOD to lift me up and help me down the road to recovery from this addiction, and so at this moment I am dropping to my knees and praying to be lifted up, working on my faith in GOD and his power to heal.