To Be Seen or Not Seen that is the question

Ohhhhh why does life have to have so many ups and downs, and I don't just mean the numbers on the scale;-) I went to a retreat this weekend with the wonderful ladies from my church. I always go anticipating a great time, but am always surprised by what manifests. This retreat was amazing and emotionally draining, but there was one special lady there named Penny, who touched my heart. She was one of the speakers, and during one of her talks she referred to the fact that during one of our alone times she had watch out the window as one of us was reading our bible/praying, she said she felt moved to tell that person, not mentioning names that she had seen me and that God had put it on her heart to share that He saw me also and that he would be working in my life. This touched my heart for sure, but it also made me relize one thing that hurts my heart. I feel people do not see ME. I mean the real me. I am hiding under all these layers of fat, but why do I do that. What am I hiding from. I do want people to see me more than anything, I hate being invisible. So maybe the only thing that will cure this Obesity problem of mine is to get to the answer as to why I hide behind my fat? Does anyone have an answer for that? So again my journey continues with a new quest for new answers to find myself and to figure out how I can allow myself to be seen.