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TGIF...NOT

Whoever came up with the phrase TGIF-Thanks God It Is Friday, was not dieting. I think weekends are the hardest part of the week to get through when you are trying to eat healthy. There seems to be so many more temptation. The schedule changes, it is not as strict, there is more leeway for error. More choices that have to be made. More situations that make you have to make choices, be healthy or enjoy yourself and not be healthy. I know that sounds so negative, but truly how much fun is it to go to a party, or a bridal shower, and not be able to partake with all your friends and family as they enjoy the beautiful cake and wine, or the decadent chocolate fountain with the luscious looking strawberries to dip in it.

I know that time with family and friends, needs to become more about socializing than eating for me. The focus has been food for me for so long, it is hard to change. When you are one of the people who feels awkward in social situations, never knowing the right thing to say, or being afraid you will say the wrong thing, I guess it is just easier to stuff your face. I guess if you get fat enough no one will pay attention to you and then you will not have to worry about that awkward moment ever happening. Although if you take it a step further, by stuffing your face I guess we inevitable avoid living life all together don't we, and that is not what anyone truly wants. I know I don't. I want to be able to live my life to the fullest, but being full from stuffing your face makes that impossible.

So I guess the saying that I like the best and am trying to focus on is "EAT TO LIVE, NOT LIVE TO EAT", and the world will be your oyster!!!!!!!

War of the Wills in the grocery aisle

Things have been good this week. I have made healthy food choices, stayed within my calories, and even exercised while my workout partner is on vacation. So all in all it has been a good week, but, and there always has to be a but doesn't there;-) I had a meeting tonight and afterwards took advantage and stopped at the grocery store for a little shopping without the kids. Now since I have had a good week, my brain is telling me "You have been good you deserve something gooooood!!". So as I make my way through the store I am buying my healthy stuff, but stopping to look at the labels of the unhealthy stuff. Like cookies are going to get any less fatting or have less sugar!!!, but as I look at the label the dueling voices in my head begin to talk. Healthy voice, "It is not worth it, you are doing so good, you feel so good!" Unhealthy voice, "But it will taste so good, you know you want it, it won't hurt, just this once, you deserve it." Thankfully I do not listen to this voice and continue to move on through the store.

I eventually get to the ice cream aisle. Now I know I should have never even ventured down this aisle. Ice cream is my weakness. I love Ice cream!! But alas, I do head down the aisle, looking at labels, looking at sugar free verses regular, and then I see it. The Ben and Jerry's section. My sister recently turned me on to a new flavor they have-Cinnamon Buns, and it is to die for! I see it and pick it up looking at the label. I am still below my calorie count today and have exercised all week, so I justify the 1000 calories for the one small container of ice cream just this once I can have it. So I put it in my cart and continue down the ice cream aisle and turn into the next aisle. I stop as the healthy and unhealthy voices start to discuss again. I turn around head back down the aisle put it back on the shelf, and instead grab sugar free, fat free, fudgecicles. So again I head out of the ice cream aisle, but again stop. My voices in my head again arguing, buy it, don't buy it, okay to eat it, not okay to eat it, but you really want it, You should have it, this once won't hurt. My brain began to hurt as I went back and forth between the voices. Who do I listen to??? Needless to say I took that ben and jerrys ice cream container off the shelf three different times and ended up putting it back three times before my healthy voice won out.

Am I crazy or what. I am sure that if anyone was paying attention to me in the store and would of seen the war of wills that I was going through, they would of either, 1) laughed historically probably peeing their pants, or 2) would of called the manager complaining of a crazy person in the store.

So here I sit tonight, after winning the battle of the wills, with my sugar free fudgecicle, bloggin about my battle. Am I satisfied?? Kinda. Am I happy with my decision??? Yes. I am still thinking about how good that Cinnamon Bun Ice Cream would have tasted, but am glad that the choice I made will effect my healthy positively and not negatively.

Brand New Day

I had a bad weekend. My depression got the best of me, which in turn, had me mostly sleeping and eating, and by eating I mean unhealthy eating, which makes the depression even worse. But the good news is by the end of Sunday, I had hit rock bottom and was on my way back up. I got up today with a new determination that I have not had in several weeks. I got a lot accomplished, exercised with my family, and followed my food plan today completely. Making only healthy choices and staying within my calories. The best thing is that it felt sooooo good. I felt in control again;-)

My Brain Hurts

Ouch! My head is throbbing. It has been one of those days or should I say weeks. As a mother of 3 dealing with summer vacation, I must say to day I was at the end of my rope.

So here is my whine for today, I am going to just get it out there and head back to my new positive place. I heard so many moms, moms, today that my brain is on overload. Some days there is just no brain space left for me to take care of me. Can others relate to this????? or is it just me.

I did plan an escape though. When my husband got home for work I headed to the hair salon, to make a change. A new color can do wonders for a girl!!! And oh how I love how my hair lady massages the head when she shampoos your hair. If I were rich I would higher a full time hair dress to wash my hair everyday, it feels so good and is so relaxing.

This definately helped to rejuvinate me a little, make me relize I am slacking on taking care of me duties, and I am heading back on the right road. I need to start pre-planning my days, so that I can stay on some kind of track in all areas of my life, family, friends, house, and self.

As far as working on my goals, so far I have achived number 1-I attended my prism meeting. As for the other three they are still a thought in process, but will be in place by the end of the week, hopefully tomorrow.